Thirty-six, it's going to be a good year. I'm choosing a word to focus on over these next twelve months. Authentic. Accepting who I am and allowing for grace where I'm still learning. I want to be more honest with myself. Practically, this might translate into little things, like going to the mall just for fun, because I really do love it there- frivolous or not. I've denied myself things like this for years, even though I enjoy it, because I didn't want to be judged. Today it meant that I finally admitted to myself that the gray in my hair was beyond the point of being able to properly color it myself. Some might argue that the more authentic choice in this matter would be to just let it go gray. But if I did that, I would only be doing so because it felt like something I "should" do, to please the "all natural/age gracefully" people. I don't want gray hair, so I put myself in the hands of a professional, and now I love the color of my hair. Silly? Maybe. But these ideas translate to much bigger matters than hair and shopping. Those are just all that I'm comfortable in sharing here. ; )
I realized that I have a tendency to feel guilty about things that I just need to enjoy. I won't eat cupcakes every day, but when I do have one, I'm just going to let myself savor every delicious bite. And that goes for a whole lot of other things in my life too. It's time for that inner judgmental critic of mine to go away. That's why thirty-six is going to be a good year.
For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery. Galatians 5:1